What Makes You Happy?

This question opened Pandora's Box and sent me on this healing journey. I longed to discover who I was. The missing piece was realizing that the answers were all within me. I had to look within to begin understanding my thoughts, feelings, actions, and words. Why did I have such high standards for myself? Why was I so hard on myself? Why couldn’t I forgive myself for not meeting my expectations? Why was I so angry and sad most of the time? Why could I only find peace while at mass? Why was I never satisfied with my achievements? Most importantly, why did the question "What makes you happy?" bring me to tears every time?

It took months of quieting my mind to begin understanding the answers to these questions that had been swirling around in my thoughts for so long. The process of introspection and self-discovery was neither straightforward nor simple. None of it was easy, and none of it was quick. Each day brought its own set of struggles as I wrestled with my thoughts and emotions, trying to sift through the noise to find clarity. I wanted two things: easy and quick answers to start LIVING!

The desire for immediate gratification often clouded my judgment, pushing me to seek shortcuts in a process that demanded deep reflection and understanding. I yearned for the instant revelations that would allow me to leap into a life filled with purpose and fulfillment, yet I was learning that true insight often requires time, contemplation, and a willingness to confront uncomfortable truths. As I gradually learned to embrace the stillness and allow my mind to settle, I began to uncover the layers of my psyche, revealing insights that were both enlightening and transformative.

I felt an overwhelming sense of happiness when I was surrounded by the beauty of nature. The vibrant colors of the flowers, the soothing sounds of rustling leaves, and the fresh scent of the earth all contributed to a profound sense of joy and tranquility. I felt happy when I was taking care of myself, and engaging in activities that nourished my body and soul, whether it was through meditation, reading a good book, or simply enjoying a quiet moment to reflect. I was happy when I was sharing my knowledge with others, whether it was through teaching, mentoring, or simply having meaningful conversations that sparked curiosity and growth. I was happy when I was enjoying a meal or engaging in an activity with my family, where laughter and love filled the air, creating cherished memories that would last a lifetime. I felt happiness when I was working on myself, setting goals, and striving for personal growth, which brought a sense of accomplishment and fulfillment. Happiness is feeling the warm sunshine on my face, the gentle breeze in my hair, and the connection to the world around me. Happiness is the exhilaration I feel when I work out, push my limits, and witness the definition in my muscles as a result of my dedication and hard work. Happiness is the pure joy that lights up my children’s faces when they laugh, a sound so infectious that it brings a smile to my heart. Happiness is finding contentment in enjoying my home, a sanctuary filled with love, warmth, and comfort, where every corner holds a story.

Much love,

Rosy